Sunday, March 28, 2010

Time Away

So, I just got back from a beautiful resort in Boca Raton, Florida. It is owned by the Waldorf Astoria but it is known as the Boca Raton Resort. Wow! I love my company. I really am learning to love every part of my life.

It was a hard trip. Last year, everything was wonderful. I was at this same conference for my work, mom and dad were watching the boys, and life was blissful. Funny, though, is that I didn't recognize how blissful it was. Last year I was winning awards with my company, laughing with my mom by text and phone, and everyone was healthy, yet I was feeling like I should do, be and accomplish more. I wasn't content or even satisfied with who I was or what I was doing.

This year, I'm went on this same trip. Throughout this year of turmoil, my life has changed drastically. Friends, trust, character and significance all becomes more evident in the face of adversity. This past week, I didn't win any awards, I didn't get to hear my mom's laugh, my husband wasn't able to be with me, and I spent my week in such a different way, and yet I am more content and definitely more satisfied with who I am and where I am going than I have been in years.

I thank mom for that. I thank her for giving me a life worth striving for and admiring. I love what I do, I love my family and I realize that God is my ultimate provider.

I noticed more the look of happiness (or lack thereof) in people rather than what they said or did. I talked deeply with others and truly listened to their stories from home and there hopes and dreams. This has been a trying year to say the very least, but I hope that I can honestly say that I am a better person this April 1 than I was a year ago.

As the day approaches when mom left this earth I am left with anxiousness. I do not know what I will feel or what I will do, but I know that I am more aware of those who love me, I am sure of my blessings that surround me, and I know that my mom continues to teach me strength and kindness even in her death.

1 comment:

  1. Rachelle:
    I have thought of you and your family often these past few days. I know that this is a hard time of the year for you. We want you to know that you are in our thought and in our prayers.
    I know that it must be hard to look around and see the world that God created and know that your Mom is not here to see it with you and to enjoy it with you and the family, but this is the time of year when it seems that God is reminding us of how much he loves us. We see the beautiful flowers, the drab surrounding turning into the beautiful green lawns and fields and it reminds us of the Son who died on the cross for us and how much he loves us. I love to be outside in the cool evenings and to be able to listen to the sounds of the earth coming alive--to hear the birds, frogs and smell the flowers. Well, maybe you can't hear the frogs in the city!!!!!! We can on the farm. I know that your Mom and my dear friend, Norma is with our heavenly Father. What a wonderful reunion we will have some day. Looking forward to heaven and to that reunion. Isn't she a lucky lady? She is already there.
    Love to all of you. Oh, I forgot. Someone that lives in our park know Nate. We were talking about our children and I told them that our son, Kevin lived in Frankfort and attended church at Parkview Christian. They live just a little ways from there and love the church. They said that it was a 30 minute drive to church. I told them about Village Christian and that Nate was the pastor. They said that Nate's dad had been the pastor at their home church for many years. I can't remember their name, but will try to find out what it is. Isn't it a small world.
    Love you all,